Thing's, a going great for me, so much has changed, something for worse but most good, But, it's a devastating thing to go through such an abrupt change. Having one lifestyle then going to a completely different one. New School, New Friends, new me.

Sometimes, I want it to stop, to go back. To the friends who didn't care, the where my life was worse, but I was me there, or at least I felt like I was. The new me doesn't feel quite right. I love getting great grades and feeling accomplished. But not having those true friends yet makes it suck.

If you ask any of my friends what I'm like this would be the common answer: He's loud Obnoxious, to violent, and carefree. Yet, is always there, having a helping hand ready, Smart Intelligent, and Understanding.

So how can there be two polar opposites in me, Shouldn't they be tearing each other apart? Somethings I'll never understand. But I seem to have a good grip on things, to go through all of this and stay strong, or at least seem it. I guess those years of dealing with everyone else's shit helped.

I tend to come off harsh to most, but it's just the mask I wear to keep form getting hurt. I need that chance to shine, to show who I really am.